Feeling Good

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good, I'm feeling good
Fish in the sea

You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom on the tree
You know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when the day is done, that's what I mean
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me, for me

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good
I'm feeling good
I feel so good

Yesterday I went and saw my surgeon and he took my drain out.  Hallelujah!!!!  He also took all the steri-strips off the incision area.  My sweet Mother went with me.  This has not been easy on her, nor my Father.  This is great news, except yesterday when I bent down to pick something up, I heard my insides, and it sounded like a bowl full of jelly about to erupt!  (gross, I know; would have been a great party trick, haha).

Dr. Fisher said, "Please live your life CANCER FREE, because you basically are."  Honestly I didn't hear anything else because the tears just flowed.  A second chance?  It made be think of the words of Alma,

 "And now behold, I ask of you, my brethren of the church, have ye spiritually been born of God? Have ye received his image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty change in your hearts?"

So now my next step is with the medical oncologist on April 1st.   I asked "Why does one need chemotherapy and/or radiation if they have had the affected appendage removed?'  The answer I received was, "it is like having car insurance, I don't plan on getting into an accident today, tomorrow or 3 weeks from now, but if I do, I am OK because I am paid up on my car insurance.  Chemotherapy and/or radiation is like that car insurance  I am not planning for cancer to peek its' head up again, but if it does, I am paid up on my insurance."  I am not ignorant to think that it will NEVER come back, even with a treatment plan.   But, later than sooner would be nice.

Today with the all bandages off and the drain and tube out, I have become more aware that I have lost a physical part of me.  I would be lying if I said I have not cried at all today with this becoming more apparent.  It was easier to take with my sweet husband, putting his arms around me saying, 'I love you just the way you are'.  Why has today been harder than the Sunday after surgery?  I don't know, but it has.

I know that prayers have been answered.  I know for a fact my name has been put on prayer rolls around the US, and will be put on the prayer roll in Stockholm by a dear friend in Norway, next month when she attends.  I am in awe of all the support and love that has been shown.  Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.