After a whirlwind weekend, and a few tears, I am here on Monday feeling calm. I have decided that my approach will be take it 'day by day, and do what the doctor's say'; yet still feel like I have no idea what is in store for me.
Yesterday, I felt calm, and peaceful and wondered if this was a feeling that people feel when prayers are offered in your behalf? I feel so blessed and unworthy of such great affection. I need to serve people more, I need to so bad, not the other way around.
Today was the MRI. My Father took me to IMC Campus and I went in. It was very interesting that you are on your stomach during this test. Personally, if you have to have a MRI, this is the way to go. You are on your stomach, your face is in a massage type pillow. You don't really know you are in the tube. I literally closed my eyes, and if they hadn't told me they were pushing me in and pulling me out, I wouldn't have known I was in the tube.
They did pictures without contrast, and then some with contrast. Boy that contrast is cold going through your veins.
They just kept saying, 'You did great! You did great!' I was thinking what does a person who doesn't do great do??? Jump up and out of the tube????? I did great so I learned today that I only jump at movies.
Today, I got some great news. I learned, that through United Health Care, they have a program called OptumHealth Cancer Resource. Through this program, I have been given my own, Oncology Nurse, a kind of health coach to help me through every step of the way. Her name is Patty. I spoke with her today for more than a half of an hour. She has been doing this for over 30 years and gave me great support and answered questions for me, and defined words and situations for me. From what I understand, she will be there every step of the way. She said that right now, it is a confusing time, until you get a plan of attack, then it gets a bit smoother.
Today, I was able to talk to a dear friend who was in my LDS in Florida. She lives in Baltimore and was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in 2011. Like I told her, I don't wish that she had this, but so happy that I can talk to someone, so strong, that has been through this journey as well and can stand and say, yes I have been through it and you are strong and will do great. One thing she said that I clung to is that she has learned through this that in the pre-existence she signed up for this so yes, she can do this. I knew this would happen in the pre-existence, and wanted to follow Father's Plan.
Tomorrow, I meet with the surgeon for my consultation....
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